Wildflowers
timer Published Date:19th Sep, 2020

You thought you were strong, built in like those shining armor whose blades shines with the glory, of blazing lives that lost from it, with no remorse, no empathy, those sharper edges that can cut through with no once of second thought, but you can be wrong too, every time you look yourself in the mirror, you see withering wildflowers, the one they don’t write books about, while some of them reap them out from their yards because the prettier flowers are roses, tulips, lily and hibiscus, and they eye pretty things, while you still struggle to outgrow despite anything, anything that stops you from blossoming and even though they never stopped by to water you, you continue to flourish under the sun. Well, this could be it, you never need to be appealing, to be seen, to be held on like the paper doll you had all the time when you were five but you tried hard, didn’t you? When your father left you on July of the year you don’t want to remember, you never learned to forgive yourself because unlike those roses that makes other to handle with care otherwise they could prick, you were flowing river, you’d bend over and over for people you love. With all those over spilling potency, you didn’t knew what to do so you just kept flowing and flowing until one day it flooded you, like the boy who touched you in all those wrong places you were not okay with, claiming he loved you. Is this what love is? And if being okay with it makes you pretty just as easily they thought they owned you, being wrapped up as bouquet in parches paper won’t serve as a band-aid if it would, sad indie songs wouldn’t rip your heart out in the morning while digging your head in Sylvia Plath poems trying to soothe ambivalence inside you, you wouldn’t fall like the autumn leaves after cigarette after cigarette, emptying you with each exhale. You weren’t supposed to fall apart at seams, when you can bloom in ruins, like every wild flower does, like every part of you does.

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अल्टिमेट आकाश

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लेखक : Santosh Lamichhane

मिती : November, 2018

भावनाको तरेलीमा

भावनाको तरेलीमा

लेखक : एन. पी. खतिवडा

मिती : 2016

मुना मदन

मुना मदन

लेखक : Laxmi Prasad Devkota

मिती : Evergreen

चामल खानेहरू र चौलानी पिउनेहरू

चामल खानेहरू र चौलानी पिउनेहरू

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मिती : September, 2015

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लेखक : Santosh Lamichhane

प्रकाशन: November, 2018

बितरक : Samakalin Sahitya Pratisthan

भावनाको तरेलीमा

भावनाको तरेलीमा

लेखक : एन. पी. खतिवडा

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