Prayers to the god
timer Published Date:22nd Sep, 2020

As the sun comes out to let people do the mundane things like praying to god with the love they have known, and prayers they think is delivered by the angels in a white cloak. To tell them that they are being delusional is to give myself the taste of my own lack of rationality, everybody hates when being questioned at their belief, but I do that a lot to myself, that if I saw you one more time across the road I would scream your name and my lungs would go dry, from how the waters in my body have drained and is filled with the sands from the desert I have lost the map of and you can quite tell with the facts that I love you, the way shepherds love the mountains where they can see tiny huts, the springs, and the villages far away.

And the memories keeps dampening my roots from the dwellings that takes me back to you, and to look at the faces of young men trying to brighten my midnight is just another tyranny, and heavier their sighs with the lust and the desire to destroy me with their each touch scrutinise me like I am becoming a slave of my own devoir. It’s not that I cannot sleep alone, but the ghost of you keeps me awake at most hours of the night or more so makes me want to pick up the phone and call you, to find you at the receiving end of the line. But I am not sure whether you will pick it up or not, and I wonder what will I say to you if you do.

I still think of you, and here’s the thing that I cannot let you ruin me again . But if I see you across the street, I won’t scream your name this time, or wave at you with my hand in the air waiting for our eyes to meet, or bring you daisies to make you smile, I would turn around and walk away before the storm meets the hurricanes. So everytime I think of you, all I do is I bow, and I bow with the love that I have learnt, that I have known from you, as if my prayers would also be delivered to the god safely or more so secretly by the angels in a white cloak.

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अल्टिमेट आकाश

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लेखक : Santosh Lamichhane

मिती : November, 2018

भावनाको तरेलीमा

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मिती : 2016

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मिती : Evergreen

चामल खानेहरू र चौलानी पिउनेहरू

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लेखक : Santosh Lamichhane

प्रकाशन: November, 2018

बितरक : Samakalin Sahitya Pratisthan

भावनाको तरेलीमा

भावनाको तरेलीमा

लेखक : एन. पी. खतिवडा

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