To the guy I once dated, here’s the final goodbye.
timer Published Date:2nd Oct, 2020

I wish you the best, the better and every beautiful blessings life can offer you. I hope you remain as humble as you are and full of life I once remember you used to be.

And here I am saying goodbye to you, in words that took me very long to finally say without being any hesitant and without being angry on why it ended so soon. I am no longer hurt and bitter that you are not part of my life anymore, because I know we are separated by so many times away that without even me knowing I have learned to live without you and learnt so many ways to eventually let you go.

But thank you for stopping by, for loving me once and helping me grow to the person I have now become. This is so profounding to learn that we fall in love more than once in a lifetime and its tragically beautiful with every single one of them. I know that she makes you feel butterflies inside you when she smiles and I am happily in love with a man who is so proud to call me his. I hope you got to learn the guitar lessons you always wanted to learn and I am working on my writings that you always told I was good at but only difference I find now is you sing lullabies for her, times when sleep can’t find her and I write love poetries for his loving brown eyes that warms my heart in cold stormy nights.

This ones for the closure we never got to have, and unsaid goodbies that we exchanged. I always thought endings were sad and I was never good at it, to let go of a face that I was so used to search everywhere, in other places and even in people too. But now it feels easy, I have learnt that there’s always good that comes after in goodbies, god always have plans for each of us, I have started to rekon and I no longer dwell on ‘what ifs’ and ‘what not’, if the things had turned the other ways between us and we had actually worked it out.

But I am at bliss, deeply felicitous knowing that life is made up of fleeting moments, and with greater understanding that moments are not forevers, they just come and they go but you carry them with you forever, and you were one of those moments I would forever cherish but going back to you, that same path doesn’t keenly entice me anymore, so I would rather say goodbye. And I mean it this time.

So goodbye.

For I had already let go of all your belongings, from the smell of your skin to the memories of last spring we spend laughing, now it’s time for you to stop living inside my head too, I have nothing left of you in me.

Here’s to you, the one I once shared my soul and deepest secrets to, this is my final goodbye, and I’m letting you know that I am at peace, beyond any doubt, I am releasing you from my thoughts, my prayers and every stories I had ever written about you. I wish you the best, the better and every beautiful blessings life can offer you. I hope you remain as humble as you are and full of life I once remember you used to be.

And here I am saying goodbye to you in words, I should have said long time ago.

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